I've been going through a transition lately. I'm changing the way I respond to life. It is not easy to go from a negative viewpoint to a positive one. It takes more than saying affirmations (though that does help) it means changing my thoughts and my responses. It means not beating myself and allowing myself to make mistakes.
In the past I've had many situations where I've felt betrayed or badly used. I've carried resentment around with me and created negative expectations based on those experiences. However, if I want to change my life, I have to change how I respond to my experiences.
Believe me, that is not easy. It takes time to change your thoughts - lots of time. My fears constantly rise up
to try and stop me from releasing past baggage. Releasing the past means being vulnerable because I am also releasing the protective armor I've built up over time. I have to be open to new experiences if I really want to change my life. Being open can be very frightening if you've spent years protecting yourself from feeling pain.
I know that the work I'm doing is worth it. I've seen positive results in my life since I've started on this path. It doesn't make it any easier to change though, because as we change we have no idea what is waiting up ahead.
Letting go of learned responses to the things that happen in our lives means letting go of the illusion of control. It's a step-by-step process that will test us as we move forward.
